Thankful Spirit

Dear God,

Thank you for a wonderful day today. There are so many negative items about today that I tended to look at, but let's focus more on the positive. I thank you for letting me spend time with my mother and new step sister. I did have fun being out of the house. Granted, it was not what I would have done while in the city, but it was still nice. The only drawback is that I wish I could have slept more. But I do thank you for the time with my mom.

It has been so long since we were able to spend time together. I cannot express how much I miss the sleepovers at her house. I miss spending the evening with her playing games, doing pedicures, and watching movies. I especially miss the Sunday mornings when we would spend the entire day at the pool side. Talking, reading, swimming, and sleeping in the sun. I never realized how much those nights meant to me. They were like my little vacations away from my everyday life. I could be a guest at someone else's home, but still feel at home. It was nice because my mom would take care of me for the night. Help me make up a bed to sleep in, make us snacks, dinner, etc.... I really miss those quality times and I don't think I will ever be able to get those back. She's getting married. And I am happy for her, truely I am. I would never want to have her sacrifice her happiness for time spent with me. I've learned that. I just miss those days. And yeah, I still see her. But it is not the same. She is so preoccuppied now. And not only that, but she has another family to balance as well. I just hope there will be times like those in the future. Obviously they won't be every week, but once a month or every other month would be great too.

There is something I would like to ask of you. I seem to be short tempered and iritated with my husband lately. I don't know why, exactly. I've been taking things he's been saying or doing too personally lately. I feel like he has been on my case all the time in the last week, when really he is probably being no different than before. I would like your help in my coping with this and just blocking out the negative thoughts I have during these times. Just allow me to enjoy him and be a happy, cheerful wife for him. He does so much for our family and at times I just don't always appreciate or acknowledge his hard work. It's like I expect it of him, not thankful for him. So please help me to be more thankful for my husband and show him just how much he means to me and how appreciative I am of everything he does for us.

Thank you for helping me to remember that I am supposed to be nice in everyday situations, with everyone I meet. I am still struggling with this, because I am very judgemental. But I have also seen that my judgement is mostly wrong. When I decide I want nothing to do with a person, and do not like them, they actually turn out to be great and someone I enjoy being with. I am trying so hard to remember that everyone is a human being and your child. That none of us are any better than the rest. No matter what our situation in life is. I just hope you will continue reminding me of this so that it will become so ingrained in my brain, that I will never forget it or act otherwise. I also thank you for showing me how little acts of kindness can brighten another person's life. I pray that you allow me to continue to do this and help me make someone else's life better each day. Even if it is a smile, or small deed, I would like to make a difference in someone's life everyday. I strongly believe that if everyone in the world lived with this principle, then the world would be a much better place.

Thank you for everything. And especially thank you for opening my eyes to my mother. Thank you for not having me take advantage of her financial offers today. I saw her spending so much money and I just could not take advantage of her and have her buy me anything. So thank you for that. And for letting me see that money does not grow on trees. I love you and I thank you for every blessing you have given me in my life and for all that you continue to do. I trust you, I truely do. And I thank you for never letting me down. In Jesus name Amen.